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What Is Channelling?

Many people ask me, What is Channelling? and what is the difference between a channel and a medium? etc. Here is Read More »

Krista at dawn on the Saint John river.

Inner Journeys of the Heart & Soul

I have always been a soulful person. It never occurred to me to be anything but.  For the last four Read More »

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Creating Joy Through Change

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Grounded & Growing

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Feeling God When You Feel So Alone

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What Is Channelling?

Many people ask me, What is Channelling? and what is the difference between a channel and a medium? etc. Here is my answer, followed by the answer that came to me through channelling…

Before I get into how my channelling gift developed and the recent events which led me here, let me attempt to define channelling with my own inner wisdom and experience, followed by my Divine channel’s answer to the question, beyond my own limited frame of reference.

What Is Channelling?

Krista’s Answer: 

Channelling is… an ability to convey God’s or Divine Beings’ or Spirit’s messages through someone who is both open and clear or pure of heart. Some people can channel deceased loved ones and other beings, that are not necessarily of the higher realms. I do not do this. I only channel beings of the highest realms, and those they bring forward, who are sometimes loved ones who have crossed over, or other people’s relatives. However, this is not my purpose or gift. I associate mediums with those who primarily channel deceased loved ones; and there are good mediums like Theresa Caputo, of the TLC show, The Long Island Medium, who come from the white light of God, and not so good mediums who channel lower entities or “whatever comes through”. This can be quite dangerous and not recommended.

The purpose of my channelling is to uplift humanity and correct or heal misperceptions, give solid information or guidance, provide comfort, reassurance and encouragement, and channel healing at the deepest level, whether physical, emotional, mental or spiritual. It is always wise, loving and powerful. Anything less than that is either my own ego interfering (the conscious mind), or someone else’s from a lower realm, which I avoid.

I protect my channel by eating good vegetarian plant-based foods, limiting or eliminating alcohol or sugar, water fasting on occasion (sometimes weekly for a whole day, that’s 24 hours), prayer and meditation, forgiveness and surrender to a Higher Power. I also say the Lord’s Prayer and the Channelling prayer before I channel, calling on God, Jesus and the angels, and sometimes Archangels to clear myself, and the space I am working in. This clears my channel, heart and mind, and allows my body to become a pure vessel of light so that I can convey the wisdom coming through me, to help myself in my own life first, so that I can then be of service to others, including my family, friends, clients and those who find my work.

When I am prepared, I then go into a deep trance using my training in hypnosis, using a kind of inner guided visualization, I connect with the golden light, and when I feel the energies opening within (especially around my crown chakra at the top of my head), I begin to move or speak… I identify the voice (or collective voice) that comes through me as the Angels and other Divine Beings. Sometimes as part of the healing session, I bring my clients into trance with me, and we journey together, while I guide and convey the messages, following the directions given to me by my Divine helpers.  What comes through is what my client needs (not necessarily what they want to hear, but what they need to know or experience for their highest good in that moment). This may involve messages about their life, or journeying to the life between lives to experience themselves as a soul, meeting guides or angels, or even experiencing past lives for healing and forgiveness. It is always to free them in the present to live their life’s purpose now and be of greater service to humanity.

One quick side-note: a question some of you may have… Can anyone channel? I don’t think so – at least, not yet. I do believe it is a gift from God and a service that is directly related to my (and other’s) life’s purpose at this time.  It also requires a lot of dedication and commitment in order to do it well and accurately. However, everyone can receive messages from their guides and angels in some way (like inner knowing, nudges, signs and synchronicities or through angel cards like Doreen Virtue’s), and many already have good intuition or psychic abilities – but they may not have been developed to the extent of being a full channel, conveying the words, wisdom and divine energies of Heaven for the purpose of healing. That is not to say they are not gifted, or that their words of reassurance and love are not powerful – it’s just not the same as full channeling. You have to experience it to see the difference!

There! That’s my answer! Whew.

Now, let’s see what happens when I channel…

 

The Channelled Answer:

Audio – Listen here…

Transcription of channelled message:

“God’s Will be Done. God’s Will is nigh. All are coming into alignment with God’s Will. It is time. God is coming through all the channels of light that are available to Him at this time, for God’s Will is done through others, through you, through all who are open, and who are willing, who are able to convey the messages of Spirit through their channel of opening, for God’s Will is done through the mind, through the heart, through the soul. This opening comes through in the best ways for the individual. It is not always done though the spoken word, sometimes it comes through an idea, a thought, a process, a system; it comes in many ways, the inspiration. The channelling comes through many people, through many ways, many ways. This is one, this is one; and so it is, that this way helps those who are open to receive the Blessings that come. For God’s Will comes through this channel, and God’s Will comes through you who receive it, for you are a part of that, and you cannot be a channel without someone to receive and so you connect and become One.

The Oneness is what creates the channel, for it has a purpose, and without that purpose it has no sense and does make any sense. It must flow through to someone/something, it cannot be just for one, it must be for all, for all are benefiting from the use of the information, as well as the energy.  The energy flows through one to the other and back and forth, and spreads as well, it is something that cannot be contained, it goes out into the realms of spirit as well as the physical earth and all the inhabitants of that plane, and so everyone is lifted. It comes.  It does not happen through a linear sequence, it comes through the arterial? brain, it comes through a different witness, a process of creation. God’s Will comes through the energies of the system, the person, the creation, and it trickles out from there into all who are willing to receive it. They are willing but also not willing at the same time. Many channels are blocked at this time. We open them slowly through this process of awareness, and channelling is one way to open and to unblock those who are open to it, yet still resistant as well. This is one way we can reach all who need this work and who can relax and receive it. It does not require a lot of effort, but it does require an openness to receive it and a willingness to follow the guidance. For guidance does come through this method of creation.

God’s Will is for you to benefit, not to receive information that would not help you, and so the other ways that God reaches people are through many, many systems on earth, on this planet. There are many ways, many ways.  God’s Will is flowing through the internet, through many ways where people read information, many ways that people find to communicate with one another, even in the texting and communications that go back and forth between individuals, seemingly indifferent and not important and yet something occurs: there is a communication, a witness, a receiver, someone who is caring for the other and reaching out into the distance to pull them into a Oneness, a connection. God is working through every relationship on the planet at this time, and in this way, every relationship is a channel of the Divine. 

God’s Will comes through relationships as well. Even those who are challenged and are struggling with relationships, are being challenged to uplift themselves and connect at a higher level, to see the other as… a dream, as a witness, as a part of themselves, as well as an extension, an extension of God, for God is with all, all, All beings, whether they are aware of it or not. The channels are open in some and not in others. God Wills all channels be open, but this is not always possible in this short period of time. It will not always happen, for some can not do this alone, and so others who are more open and light come to help and to receive the information on their behalf and to spread this love. It is coming NOW through the various channels who have been prepared for this path. This path is for those who are walking with God, and who need to convey this information in order to be at peace, for their channels Are Who They Are, they cannot function without creating and extending the love that is within them, and that flows through them at this time; it will create tremendous anxiety to suppress the information, and it will also create depression for those who struggle with depression are simply closing down their channels and have not opened up to the light, and do not see the purpose of their lives.

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This is a message from the ethereal realms for you to open up your channel to the light and find someone who can help you, for God will work with you through them, and you will become One in the process and receive all that God Wills for you, for you are a part of God and cannot go alone on this planet anymore. No, there is no room for loneliness, there must be joining, and channels are always communicating and connecting with and for others; they are never solitary, they are always for the benefit of all, including themselves, for God lifts them as well, and it is a healing process both to receive and to give the information.

There is more… there is more coming, and the more energy that comes, the more channels need to be open in order to receive the Blessings that come. This planet has been a dense one, and we ask that you lift yourselves a little higher through the various methods that Krista has outlined in her message, including her diet and her way of channelling and her way of overcoming resistance through forgiveness and through prayer.

It is important that people find a way to loosen and lighten themselves from their heavy loads and burdens, to find a counselling ear, to find someone who can listen, and to be at peace and to create connection. It is important at this time to find and open the channels of God, and to connect those who are struggling with the light. These are the light workers who have come to do this work, and that is why it is important at this time, for simply speaking from the human ego or voice is not always enough, and sometimes we need to speak a little stronger and clearer through an open channel, in order to have the information be received clearly without any human interference. For God’s Will is not always perceivable from the density in which you are now standing, and from which you speak in a normal day-to-day existence.

It is important to lift oneself through meditation, hypnosis and other methods that come through these channels. Listen and learn, learn and listen, find a way, find your way through the darkness to the light. For that is the only reason why the channels are here, to open up others, and to be at peace, for God is coming through all, and all are being asked to open at this time.

The density causes concern for many, the heaviness and the burdens of this world, the violence and the illnesses and the disease, dis-ease of mind, for God knows that all are struggling, and there is no reason to struggle anymore. There is a way through the darkness into the light. You are being called now to hold onto the light, and to witness the light, and to speak from the light.  If you are listening to this message, you are being asked to receive it in a way that calls you forth as well, for you are not simply receiving the information for your own benefit, you are also being asked to go forward as a being of light, and to begin to recognize yourself as a being of light, and not just a physical person. You are more than that. All is well. You are more than that! There is more, more for you to do in this world. The work of God is very complex and diverse, there are many, many, many parts to it, and you can play your part very well. You simply have to ask, and you will receive the answer through various methods. You may receive it within yourself  by simply going still and listening, you may also channelling through the methods that have been outlined, by seeking a channel or becoming one yourself. You are already a channel, you are simply not open yet. There are more people on the planet now who can do this work, and there is no reason not to find one who can help, for all you need to do is look and you will find one of your brothers or sisters who is a couple steps ahead on the path and who is calling you forward. Simply join in and become more aware of yourself and what is possible for you now. You will find more hope and more freedom this way. You will find more upliftment. You will find more possibility and more answers for all the things that concern you. There is no need to struggle, there is no need to fear or be in pain, for God is with you and has provided all that you need to hear and to receive the messages that are coming your way…

Please be at peace, and know that we are with you at all times. We love you. We send you Blessings. We send you forth into the light, into the love that this world so desperately needs. You are within the realm of Spirit when you speak, when you move in this way, when you receive the Voice, when you hear the Voice, and when you call forward your own voice to speak in this way. God will come through you as well if it is your will and His. If it is the Divine Will for you to be a channel it will be so, it is a Calling and you will know. It is simply a Calling, and all will come forward when they are ready, not everyone is ready at the same time, and so no one can be forced, no one can be told they must come. That is all. It is an invitation to come forward and to be at service and to be at peace, for you will be healed along with all who come into your contact. You will be healed along with them, and you will be joined with many, many people who seek on this path for freedom and enlightenment that all the planet so needs…

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There is (more) coming! There is more coming for All, All on this planet at this time. Not one will be left behind, not one will be left out. There are messages, there are people and energies and interventions for all who are asking, for all who are seeking, for all who are calling forth to God, asking for help. They shall not be deterred, they shall not be left behind. Even those who shall die or move forward into the afterlife, will be answered, all will be answered in time. All, all receive what they can receive at the moment that they can. The world play that plays out is not always in/from God’s Hands, for God’s Will be done, but the human ego is very strong and plays its own will out in time. God’s Will is for all to wake up and to be happy, for all to realize their potential and to love one another as themselves, for God Wills that all find love within themselves through the channels of light that they are. Everyone is a channel of God but they are asleep, that is all. You, you are not asleep. You have woken, you are listening to the message. You have come this far, and you will continue on your path. Know that you are not alone, that you have done well, that you have taken a step forward, and that you are being called forth to do more work. There is more for you, and there is more for all. But those who are ready will receive more because they are ready. It is in wait for all who are coming towards God and being led Home…

That is all for now.”

 

What do you think? Did you notice a difference between my human explanation and my Divine helpers through the channel? Send me your questions or comments or inquire about my work here, and I will do my best to answer you.

See Krista channel live at Miracles Grow Here! events every 1st and 3rd Monday in Scarborough, Ontario.

 

Inner Journeys of the Heart & Soul

I have always been a soulful person. It never occurred to me to be anything but.  For the last four years I have been taking people on outer journeys through spiritual retreats to beautiful destinations.  

Although this is a wonderful way to connect and be away from our lives and experience something new, what really happens is we go on an inner journey of the heart and soul.

A friend/client said to me today, “Every time I am in one of your groups, I just sit down and cry.” Why is that? Do I say something terribly offensive or frightening?! (I hope not!) “No…” he said, and I knew what he was talking about. There is an unspoken intention to connect deeply, a feeling of safety to shed the masks we all wear, and to dive deep into the work of the soul – where our hearts have permission to express themselves and let go…

The truth is, I can do this work anywhere, or nowhere. Sharing the heart and soul is truly what I love to do, and what I’ve been doing since I was a kid. I write about it, act about it, talk about it, sing about it, and ask questions about it, lots of questions, to try to delve into the ‘heart’ of it.  I describe this work as ‘transformative’. That is not a fancy word for different. It means something is revealed to us on the inside, so that things no longer feel the same on the outside, and because of this, our outer world changes as well, sometimes significantly.  What changes is me, not the people, places or things around me.  

Actually, I just become myself!

Let me give you an example:

You can go away for a vacation. And it is a wonderful vacation, with a beautiful beach, sunsets, poolside drinks. You may feel relaxed, at ease, comfortable. You may even have entertaining guests and friends to get along with and go on adventures with. This may be cathartic to some degree, and it may be just what you need. But when you get back to your life, was it truly transformative? Or do you go back to your routine and responsibilities and forget what happened…

A transformative adventure starts on the inside – even if it is done in an external environment. The environment may be conducive, it may be special in some way, it may trigger our ability to connect because of its spiritual, evocative or authentic nature – just enough to peel off our false selves and inspire a true way of seeing or being. The transformation doesn’t end when you get home. It intensifies because you have shifted.

Why do I want to change anything at all? I don’t. What I really want to do is be honest. And I guess that is what I give other people permission to do as well – to just be themselves: to cry, to laugh, to wonder, to witness, to be confused, to be fascinated, to be inspired, to be lifted. So it is not something different we are acquiring – like a new skill or talent or a new dress;  what we want is something we all yearn for, seek for, live and die for:

We all want love. 

And in that process of discovery, which is a lifelong one, when we find ourselves a little less frightened, and feel safe to ‘come home’, we can uncover our spiritual essence, our true nature and gifts, our real and raw selves just as we are…

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At this moment, I have no outer journeys lined up, other than in my own town! I am exploring the inside more and more, and inviting others in. To come out of hiding and find out what it feels like to just be loved.

Not everyone wants to share, and that is perfectly alright. What I have found in my groups, is that when someone has a moment of truth, when they share of their heart and soul, something magical happens: we fall in love with them and each other. It happens again and again. We forget where we are, whether sitting in a living room or a fancy hotel, or outside under the stars. Suddenly our hearts are so much bigger, and the tasks so much easier because we can be ourselves. Because we listened and witnessed. Because we loved.

That is the spiritual path I am on. I invite you to join me as we cross our paths in this moment, finding the truth and the beauty of it all. The wonders to behold. Whether happy or sad, in understanding or in pain, the soul is the most beautiful creation, and only longs to be itself. My job, my purpose, my quest, is to bring mine home to itself. Where we are all connected in the deepest ways, beyond the shifting of time and space. There is nothing I would rather do, write about, or talk about. Nothing in the world. There is nothing more precious than your soul.

Amen.


If you are interested in Inner Journeys of the Soul, contact Krista.

 

 

Miracles Grow Here! Events

MIRACLES GROW HERE!…

In Your Heart

Evening of Channelling,

Group Healing & Hypnosis

in Scarborough, Ontario

 Launch Event: Mon. Sept 26, 2016 6-9pm

Limited Spots! RSVP here.

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What is Channeling? Find out here.

Creating Joy Through Change

Change is inevitable; Joy is not. Joy is a choice! Although I may resist at first and have many doubts along the way, I have found (through the gifts of channelling,  spiritual direction and hypnosis), that I can let go of my past and embrace change with more Joy for myself and others, which leads to unexpected miracles…

After experiencing a dynamic shift in my life over the last few years, including becoming a channel (more on what that is in my next post!) I received a message that I would be doing my spiritual work in a “centre”. Having recently found and lost the AHA! centre in Toronto due to things beyond my control, I felt both elated and then confused as to what to do next…

So I went on a personal trek of the soul – journeying first to old Quebec City for some fun with my family…

 

…then on to Saint John, New Brunswick to see my dear friend and fellow channel/hypnotist, Elizabeth Rose… Elizabeth and I have both experienced this transformational process together since 2012, including the highs and lows of facing change, and have had to make significant, unexpected changes in our lives as a result. (We also manage to laugh and cry heartily at ourselves and the amazing things that come on our path). She has been a life-saver in times of uncertainty, and a truly gifted and healing channel. I knew she would understand and help me find my next step…

Just a year and a half ago we were sitting in a restaurant in Saint John when the angels spoke through her and announced she would be opening a healing centre in her tiny cottage (then filled with boxes and old furniture from decades ago). Needless to say she was overwhelmed! As we talked, I suddenly got an inspiration and the name popped into my head:

“I know what it is supposed to be called!… ” I announced.

“What?!” she asked stunned.  

“The Rose Cottage…” 

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Eizabeth Rose at The Rose Cottage NB

We both knew it was right. Not only is Rose her last name, but it is also represents love to many, and is one of the highest frequency creations on the planet – some even reference it to the mystical teachings of Jesus Christ.

She later added “Hypnosis School and Retreat Centre” and within 6 months, after much effort, moving things out, clearing and revamping, as well as giving up her previous life of security and creature comforts (including a high-paying corporate job in the investment world), she now lives a simple, healthy life in total service to others, holding groups and seeing clients from all over the world, from a tiny place called The Rose Cottage NB… 

On this latest visit, we did more channelling, walks, and inner work, and as always managed to find humour and fun in the midst of emotional turmoil and change. Already a houseful, including two young teenage girls, Elizabeth also held her weekly mentoring meeting in the small but open and beautiful space, overflowing with full seats for an evening of channelled messages, group healing and hypnosis.

As a full channel, Elizabeth (and I) never know what is going to happen next – we simply follow the guidance. One woman experiencing grief received healing messages from her recently deceased loved one. Others experienced themselves as pure light, and were able to climb higher in their level of consciousness and see their guides and angels. Another felt elated to have an intimate dialogue (through Elizabeth’s channel) with a lively, loving (and quite humourous!) Jesus. It was truly awe-inspiring for some, and life-changing for all. They continue to meet every Monday for Channelled messages, Healing and Hypnosis, with new people arriving weekly.

Elizabeth and I co-channelled to close off, and experienced past lives with two participants in which we all reunited as souls and healed our collective past. A gentle reminder that we are eternally bonded to many in our current lives, and our seemingly transient relationships are far more than we think or understand. It was truly liberating and joyful to feel so connected to each other and experience our eternal selves. 

Before we left, Elizabeth channelled that I was to open my own centre, and “grow where you are planted.” In a follow-up session, she channelled the title:

“Miracles Grow Here… in Your Heart”

It was perfect! I had been moving around so much on retreats and working out of other’s healing centres, I didn’t realize I could work miracles in my very own space, wherever I already am!

As we open and heal our hearts by doing the work, we follow the path of Joy even in the face of sorrow and strife. Now we are ready to receive the gifts that were waiting for us…

Out of this miraculous experience, inspiration came, and by the time I got home, I was cooking up a vegetarian storm with zest, going barefoot walking through the parks (see Grounded and Growing), opening my heart more with loved ones (see Feeling God When You Feel So Alone), and finally preparing my new healing centre by clearing rooms, painting with fresh light colours, and getting ready to welcome my growing community…

Miracles Grow Here… in your Heart

All of this came through the channelling, through connection and love, and through venturing out of my comfort zone and embracing change with an attitude of transforming sorrow and confusion into Joy and Miracles…. 

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After 2 years, it looks like things have finally come full circle: First we received the message to create a healing centre in Saint John, and now in Toronto. My friend will be returning to help me welcome you and experience this transformation during our launch event:

MIRACLES GROW HERE! 


Thanks to Elizabeth Rose, for tuning in to deliver the message of inspiration for this amazing turn of events, and to my family and friends for their continuing blessings and support as part of this incredible journey!

 

How do you create Joy in the midst of change? Do you need a little help finding your way through the changes, just as I did? Look here for the gifts of Spiritual Direction/Channelling/Hypnosis. 

 

Grounded & Growing

Like everyone else, I have experienced change or loss in my professional and personal life, sometimes leading to feelings of grief, pain and uncertainty.  It it is easy to be tempted to dismiss these feelings and say, “suck it up and keep going” or some other friendlier reminder like “these things happen, change is good, go on”.  But what happens when we don’t feel that way yet? When we’re still feeling puzzled, or depressed, stricken or shocked?

As a channel, I have learned to go within in times of struggle. In my last post, Feeling God When You Feel So Alone, I talked about how I found shelter when it was too difficult to “go within” by myself.

Another way I discovered was on a recent walk with a friend who silently held space for my transformative experience…

The trees provided a shady overhang, and the air was thick with dewy perfume. I was wearing inconvenient flip-flops, not realizing we would be walking on uneven terrain – and I said they were bothering me.

“Why not take them off?” I heard beside me, and without much hesitation, because that is the kind of person I am :), I did.

This may not seem like a big deal, but suddenly I was entranced as my feet touched the ground. The earth felt cool and moist, and I noticed the raw and richly packed earth making a path for me, with the odd random twig or leaf.  It felt like such a relief! But I didn’t say anything, because I was too engrossed in what I was doing to comment.

My friend, however, noticed my change in  mood, and was entranced with me and what I was doing, and so took pictures.

Here are some pics of the unfolding scene…

The silence and concentration required to watch my step, caused me to feel very grounded and to “keep going” without pausing to think about it. I had to! If I didn’t pay attention I might step on a rock, or worse a tiny frog! So I focused where I was, and enjoyed the feeling of putting one foot in front of the other – and the soft receptivity of the earth to hold onto.

It’s amazing how rubber shoes and other outer-wear implements shield us from the elements, but also from our fundamental connection to the earth and our interior nature. Even our feelings underneath. Once the shield is dropped, we are laid bare to feel vulnerable, while at the same time protected by something greater than ourselves.

Our vulnerability makes us feel raw (including the bottoms of our feet!), but our hearts can feel warmer, feel felt and seen, witnessed and heard.  Our mother is waiting for us, and we can let go and drop down to the great unseen.

What did this do for me? Well, it didn’t solve all my problems or talk back to me. It didn’t tell me where to go or what to do. But it provided a soft path to follow, and the permission to be me. 

Being grounded, literally, to the earth provided a sweet balm of healing, an inner well to draw from when the mental and emotional self feels too dry or unfathomable. Dipping down into the forest floor, feeling the world trembling with every footstep or forest critter’s movements, every wind through tree, gave me a sense of purpose and belonging. I can be here. I know how to do this. It is like I remembered a treasury from being a child who doesn’t worry about the shoes on her feet!

The world is an open door, and the ground is always there to greet you, to run across barefoot, to play on, or even to lie down upon and stair at the open sky or branches overhead and ask, “Why?” and just listen with profound innocence.

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Being grounded gave me a sense of innocence that remembers it is still a growing thing, like a seedling, totally dependent on the earth beneath her feet. I was connected to everything, not a solitary tree, but with roots expanding and touching other trees, a community of living things. And my friend, who was my usual companion, didn’t have to speak. Didn’t have to guide me. Just being there to witkrista walking smileness, and perhaps offer a hand as I walked over a fallen branch, was enough for me.

Being grounded and growing within came as a surprise to me. It didn’t come only from praying in solitude in my silent haven (though I lo
ve and rely upon that too); it didn’t come from talking to and fro about the problem; it came nestled in the trees, and down below on the ground, where I was busy, walking.

The greatest surprise in going forward came from putting one foot in front of the other, and finding there was always something there to catch me.

 

 

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Feeling God When You Feel So Alone

One of the downfalls of being a “spiritual” person (we are all spiritual – but that is a misnomer I sometimes give myself and others who are dedicated to the path of enlightenment/ truth/ spirituality/ authenticity/ love), is that I don’t often give myself permission to fail or fall.  Or is that perfectionism? My article on Spiritual Perfectionism deals with that topic. But here, I want to go a little deeper.

One of the most difficult things for me and perhaps others to do, and one of the things I do the best when I do it, is to be real and raw when something is bothering me. To tell the truth. When I do it I sometimes say too much and risk disapproval or abandonment. (The worst abandonment, though, is self-abandonment, and so given the opportunity I will choose the former). And when I don’t risk it, I bury it under a deep dark place because, after all, ‘I am the light’. The danger of knowing I am the light, and yet I feel darkness, is that I may pretend it is not there, hide it, or worse, give in to it. Alone, I may be tempted to believe that there is no hope, that no one hears me, and that my darkness is the truth about me. This is not the truth, and yet when I FEEL that way, it is the most challenging time to reach for light.

So what do I do when I feel so alone, struggling with something seemingly on my own, and yet not alone? Even surrounded at times by well-meaning family and loved ones, I can feel as if no one understands, I can feel judged or wounded, even if no one says anything against me – it is a thought I have about myself, that hasn’t yet found its way into the light to be healed. How can I find my way through that darkness and reach for the light within?

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One of my friends said something profoundly wise the other day as she listened with compassion – a rare gift. Knowing me as she does, that I am one to hide away when the going gets tough, she coaxed me out and provided a safe cushion to lean on while I unloaded myself. She said, “What if going within is not something we have to do by ourselves? What if going within just means going into your heart, and that means reaching out to other people, soul connection? Maybe connection isn’t just a solitary thing, maybe it can be done together because we are all connected?”

As a channel, I have learned, rather reluctantly because I have never been a good meditator, to go into a deep trance (hypnosis) and access my spiritual essence, and even talk to guides and angels. You would think, given this incredible gift, that I would never feel alone. “You can talk to Heaven? My God! Lucky you! I wish I had a direct line to God!” Well… I do. So do you, but I STILL feel alone. I don’t say this to give you no hope, I say this because the deeper message here, is that maybe God can’t be found by myself.

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Maybe God is a two-way street – or better yet, an intersection – or a busy square where many souls greet. Maybe God cannot be found locked away in a solitary cave or room (though some have found him there, too). Maybe God greets us most when we are in love, when we are forlorn and being picked up by a friend, when our husband hugs us after we feel broken and fragile, when we listen to children playing in the pool, walk barefoot on the dewy grass, or let the dog lick our face.

Maybe God is in the details. In the laughter and tears, in the rolling hills, in the depressing days of sadness where we feel so lost, and the miraculous times of healing when our hearts receive the love and hope we so desperately need from just the right person – or another unlikely place.  

Maybe love is not just in our pleas to God, but in the listening and receiving.

As a ‘spiritual person’ (I will say it only one more time, I promise), I can also be tempted to think that it is OK to give love, to extend myself beyond my own limits for others so they feel loved, but it is not OK for me to receive it, to need it, to want it, to grab for it, and even to lose it. It is not OK for me to fail or fall down. To feel alone. To feel small. It is not OK for me to be a human being who talks to angels, and sometimes would rather be with a flesh-and-bones friend whom I can see, touch and feel.

Maybe it’s OK to admit that God isn’t up there, all alone in his high cloud without me – maybe it’s OK to greet God right here, in my own world, no matter how lonely or messed up I feel. Maybe God is right here, right now, with me and you as we read and write these things, together. And in the illumination that comes from finally letting the dark cloud out of my head, and letting my heart reach out one more time – to God only knows who. Because in that moment of truth, that moment of connection, wisdom comes, and communion.

And isn’t that what God and love is all about? 

 

Let me know how you reach God when times are tough. Write a comment or email your private share here. Thank you for sharing.

 

The Thrill of Change

One of the greatest mysteries of life is how much control we really have over our lives. Is there a God? Are we at the hands of fate? Or are we ultimate Creators? Or all of the above?!

When we find ourselves in the throes of change, even change we instigated, it can be a shock to realize how much power we have, while at the same time having to admit that we know very little about what may play out.

I believe we come in to this world with preferences, a kind of rough draft outline devised by the Divine (which includes Us, by the way!)

travel planImagine you are about to go on a very long trip. You have a general idea of the destination, you’ve heard it’s pretty, usually has nice weather and there are many opportunities to play and relax and meet interesting people.  So you book your ticket.  You may look at brochures of what other people have experienced in this new environment, and you may stare out the window of the plane imagining what you may do once there.

But do you really know what will happen once you arrive?  Of course not!  That’s like saying, you will know that a man named Greg will pop up to you at the airline counter and offer you a first class seat. Or the person in the cab on the way to the hotel will redirect you to a different hotel that is much better. Or that you will meet a tall handsome stranger at dinner on the first night and end up getting married the following week.  Who knows?! Anything is possible once you arrive.  But you start with preferences…

Once you are in the flow of life, every moment is a dance of cause and effect. What mood are you in? What do you expect? Are you happy or sad? Are you in grief or ecstatic at the game that is playing out? Do you want to stop and play again?  These are all chances to experience life from different vantage points. So much can happen on the way from A to B, that you may very well find yourself at Z and have to start all over again!

What I love to do is begin with a general idea of what I would like to create, and write it down. Sometimes I doodle or cut out images, but most times my imagination is more than enough.  As a hypnotist, I have no trouble visualizing and creating inner worlds!  What is truly amazing is when they come to pass and appear in my outer reality, quite unexpectedly.

Because of change, things I never thought I would do, I have already done (like acting, having a baby – or two, travelling around the world, creating a business). And things I was afraid I wouldn’t be able to handle, I did (like divorce, death of a loved one, moving, starting a new career) and more!

Some of my greatest miracles came out of the darkest storms and greatest times of change…

I am grateful for all the change that has led me here now!

Change occurs when our unconscious or conscious desires come true! They can be quite positive or negative depending on our inner world, the expectations and influence of those around us, which is what we allow ourselves to be exposed to.

You can change anything if you really want to – except your essential self, and other people! It’s not about eradicating what is… it’s about accentuating what is or creating what could be! And if you don’t like change, you can change that too. Just stay stuck awhile and see where life takes you!

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No matter what we do, we will inevitably change, and change is good for us, as it is the zest of life, what great writers write about, what lovers moon about, and what dogs howl about. It moves us in the right direction, even when everything appears to be going wrong. Great change can come even from tragedy. Progress comes from its opposite. So, change always moves in a positive direction over time. It’s all a collective choice!

Is there any point to all this change?

Well, like travel or anything else, we learn by doing something new. We learn what we can and cannot do. We learn what we like and what we cannot tolerate. We learn what could go wrong and how to adjust the plan. There is no one way to do it, and there is no real wrong turn, for there is always a change that will open us yet again to something we hadn’t thought of before!

It is all up to you! And you, and You!  

Each of us creates change, and our world too. Our world is just a giant mirror of our collective wishes, beliefs and dreams. We can embrace and create change, or try to stay the same…  Something mysterious will always turn us one way or the other, to create something more positive, even if life has to shake us a little more.  We are being moulded by an internal Force, and what seem to be external circumstances that we helped create!

We are like the clay and the potter (Isaiah 64:8), the wrecking ball and the glue that brings it all together.  God is in us, and we are in God too! There is nothing we can’t do!

(Except know all of this in advance. Except always know what to do. Because we are human, we forget that we are powerful creators. And we forget God, too.)

Sometimes, you just have to wait for it. Change will catch up to you!

Sooner or later you will discover, The Miracle is You!

 

I would love to hear what you have to say. Write to Krista.

 

 

Spiritual Perfectionism


Do you ever get so caught up trying to be perfect, to do everything right, walking a fine line that you forget to just be yourself?  I decided I needed to write this one just for me (Of course I hope you benefit too, as the more personal ones tend to!)

As much as I want to teach right now, let me just express (that is me talking to myself again). You see, we do have more than one side, and that is precisely what we’re on about here.

So, how do I live in my spirit and still live as a human being? Good question! I don’t. I mean, not always. It seems that sometimes, I am half the time here, and half the time somewhere else.  But in those rare times when I am consciously both here AND aware of my spiritual centre, I am at my best.

But that is not this post.  This post is about when I’m not. This post is about when I’m lost. This post is about when I’m confused, cranky, miserable, haven’t had enough rest, or just want to rebel and have a beer (or two). I am not perfect, and sometimes that is the greatest spiritual lesson of all.

AND, sometimes, sometimes, it is even necessary. Meaning that having FUN, and forgetting about my spiritual self, even for a moment, and delving into the purely human (evil? see that’s my Puritan speaking again!) self, connected to family, friends, and the everyday is just as  powerful, informing, healing and extraordinary as meditating, channellingor healing others (like at the Hive Open to Spirit series last week).

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Krista having fun at the Hive 

You know, sometimes I need a little TLC too. I need a little break from the SUPERconscious mind to just be good ole’ fashioned conscious and ALIVE!

WOW. I’m so rebellious sometimes. And that makes me laugh too, because I really don’t do that much wrong?… 

EXCEPT – when I yell, get angry, threaten with a woman’s hormonal irrationalism, cry or just fall down and weep. That can be quite a serious thing. And when I do that, I tend to beat myself up that I’m not that spiritual after all. How could I fail? How could I be all that AND all those other wonderful things?

LIKE – heavenly, beautiful, funny, dynamic, silly, inspiring, singing, wonderful, remarkable, happy, transcendent and dreamy?

WELL…  Because I CAN be.  I was created to be in a body, that is real on the physical plane, attached to an emotional body that is somewhere within that responding to everything, connected to a mental body that thinks ALL THE TIME, and finally, a spiritual body that both CREATES, AND TRANSCENDS everything. You see? It really can be quite complicated.

SO… the next time you decide to judge yourself, look at me! I’m not perfect, and…

YET, I AM PERFECT, ANYWAY!

BECAUSE GOD MADE ME.

HA!

(That made me feel better, anyway. And hopefully, you too!)

LOTS OF LOVE,

FROM

ME.

 

P.S. Do you have a comment about your own spiritual “imperfections” – please comment below or send to me privately.  Thank you!