Miracle 3: “Letting Go of Fear”

Here is my confessional booth. STEP RIGHT UP! 🙂  Oh, pardon me, that’s me in line – looks like I’m going first.

 

Part of my journey has always been laden with fear. People often look surprised at me in my workshops when I own my fear. They may think if someone is stepping out into their greatness and shining a light, that there is no darkness going on inside. Well, there is in mine! All the time.  That is one of the most confusing and humbling parts of my journey. Each time I step out, I don’t think I can do it. Or I know I can, but it scares the *&^%$ bejeezus out of me.

What makes me sane, when I step out and do something I’ve never done before, is keeping it real with the people I love, and even the new people I am learning to love who may or may not love me. That’s scary!  Looking out at those faces and having no clue what any of them are thinking, yet opening my mouth and ‘spilling the beans’ – the good, the bad and the ugly – is a huge leap of faith. Vulnerability.

I wish there were an easier way. And believe me, I pray. But there isn’t. You  just have to do it anyway.  I love Susan J. Jeffers’ book, “Feel the Fear, and Do It Anyway” and Gerry G. Jampolsky’s “Love is Letting Go of Fear”.  These books are part of the reason I stepped into acting.  As well as my husband, who kept believing in me in spite of my fears and insecurities!  I would lie awake at night nervous before every gig, no matter how many I got. Every day was new, different somehow.  Each opportunity stretched me a little further to grow. And when I stopped growing, I knew it was time to move on to the next challenge.

That’s the weird part about me. If I’m not a bit nervous (or terrified) about something, I go a little crazy. I have to be doing something new, creating something exciting out of the ethers.  (And then I’m kicking myself for putting myself through so much change!) But each time I do, there is inevitably a moment like this one:

Staring into a circle of women, their faces soft and lit with light, love, giggles or tears. Broken open by what we are doing there.  I feel so in love with all of them, with the process of creation, with sharing, with their vulnerability, with caring. I feel broken open, too. My heart is full. Filled with gratitude. I have done this, and yet, I have not done this. I allowed it. It flowed through me. I gave my best. And they – they gave their all, too.

Isn’t life a miracle?

 

Here is an AUDIO: The 3 Layers of Letting Go I prepared for my women’s circle that I would like to share with you. It is all about the miracles of letting go: letting go of fear, and allowing the love, light and flow of something new.

I hope you enjoy it and let the miracle come through you!

Thanks for listening.

Krista

The Miracle Is You

 

Confession booth open 24/7 in the Comments field below. What fears nag you? And what miracles have seen you through?

2 Responses to Miracle 3: “Letting Go of Fear”

  1. Sue Thomas says:

    Fear has been a big part of me with the depression. I’ve just realized today that I’m actually looking at a bigger part of my life, in that I thought to myself about stuff in the future. I haven’t done that in ages!

    Krista, the courses gave me a sense of me. One that I’ve been missing as I’ve been dealing with so much. Thank you for the time that you gave to each of us, the warmth and care that you showered on us and for sharing with us in the way that you have grown. It’s enabled me to grab some of those ideas and work with them.

    Keep smiling!

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