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Becoming a Channel of Light Part II

Continuing my journey from the last post, I conclude my story here on how I became a channel, and its amazing effects; and announce my new offering/website for you to experience moore miracles too!…

As I left off, I had a wake-up call in 2009-2010, which left me hanging and wondering how I was going to pull this off. I did some research and became in tune with a global community of light-workers, mostly women, who were bringing the next wave of transformation and enlightenment. Out of this inspiration, I downloaded a whole workshop format and gave it the name, “Evolutionary Woman”.  For two years, I gathered women in a local church, and a nearby yoga studio, as well as online, which then launched into doing more extended retreats.

In the fall of 2012 I felt called to take a hypnosis training I’d had my eye on for over a year. I had always been fascinated by past life regression and had seen a program on CBC with Georgina Cannon, in which she regressed several clients, and then they travelled to the places where they had had past lives and were overwhelmed with emotion. It was beyond exciting to me. I had tried to do this myself, but I felt this was one of the missing pieces of the puzzle for me. So I called up Tariq Sattur, the Director of the Ontario Hypnosis Centre at the time, and arranged to begin in the spring.

On one of the first days of “Metaphysical Hypnosis” training, I spotted a woman sitting to the far end of the class. Just seeing the back of her head, I instantly knew I knew her, and so I approached, introduced myself and that began a life-changing and enduring friendship. Elizabeth Rose, who was then called by a different name and whom I just called “Rose”, also received a sign when she shook my hand, which she later told to me. Both of us had received messages from Jesus prior to the course, my communications a part of a long-standing dialogue I had while channelling through writings, and she a skeptical Buddhist who was alerted by a booming voice that she had to go to Toronto. Both of us had profound experiences while in hypnosis, which confirmed and explained our profound connection.

While in regression, and reaching the “interlife”, Tariq my instructor began to ask a series of questions. I found myself feeling quite high, as if my normal state of consciousness had stepped aside, just faintly in the background, while a larger presence stepped in and asserted itself. It was a loving presence, though very powerful.  As he asked me these questions, I heard my voice explain things that were beyond my comprehension. The guide told them him and the class her name, and obliged most of the questions about the mission I, as a being of light, was on, as part of a larger project in the ethereal realms to save the rift in consciousness that had befallen the planet. I saw images in my mind, which the voice explained, and later a student provided paper so I could draw what I saw.  As I came out of trance, I still felt the energy and so encouraged the students to continue to ask questions. It was confirmed in this engagement, that Elizabeth and I were on the same “team” and that is why our relationship was so powerful. We had work to do, a mission in this lifetime, and all the pieces were coming together.

After that experience my life was never the same. I could not think of myself the same way, as a normal girl/woman, wife, mother, student, even workshop leader. The mystical became my muse, and the encounters kept coming. I met people in my life, perfect strangers, who made announcements to me about the importance of my task, or that I had been here before.  These starting revelations continued into 2013-14, while Elizabeth and I continued to work together on the side whenever we could, going into deep trance and finding more pieces.  

Then in late 2014, after Elizabeth did a training with Ines Simpson (the Simpson Protocol), she visited me in Toronto, taught me what she learned, and suddenly while she was in trance, began turning her head. She perceived a light, and “voices” that came from the right. When inquiring who “they” were, they announced they were 9 angels, in rows of 4, 3, and 2.  I instantly said, “it’s a choir of angels!” From there, she began to channel them, and they began to instruct us on everything, from the mundane of what to eat, to the miraculous of our mission in life.

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In 2015 I invited Elizabeth to go on vacation with me in the Dominican Republic. During that trip, we worked constantly, she putting me into trance, and doing the deep healing work that the angels/Christ/God directed in what they termed “Full Immersion into Spirit”. Many layers were peeled back. Healing tears were shed. And much laughter, as I found it all quite hilarious at times – the unreality of this world, our griefs and woes, past lives or present, seemed like a constant array, a crazy travelling show. 

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While taking a break from our work, I stepped away to the washroom, and was preparing to brush my teeth. I had taken some bottled water from fridge, and was going to pour it into the glass provided int he bathroom. As I poured the most amazing thing happened: a large, 21-pointed crystal formed in the centre of the water, floating perfectly within it, never touching the sides or the top. I stared at it unmoving and called for Elizabeth to come. She too was flabbergasted and could not explain with reason, with her scientific mind, how this could happen. The crystal stayed for a good few minutes, and unfortunately we did not take a picture as we were unable to think of it. Then it slowly dissolved before our eyes. 

We asked the angels what had happened, and the answer was that the crystal was a reflection of my, Krista’s, spirit or soul, my origin. Ironically, when I was born, my uncle wanted to name me “Crystal”, but it was my father who insisted on a more original spelling, and decided on “Krista”. Either way, it was a signpost for me to pay attention and remember who I am.

After subsequent visits to the Rose Cottage, where Elizabeth had setup a healing centre in New Brunswick, I too became a full channel. And now I am running groups out of my own centre in Toronto, at Miracles Grow Here. I certainly did not plan it! Now the angels speak and sing through me, move my hands in the most graceful ways, and I feel the loving energy take over my body mind and soul. I do the healing work with others, and transfer these gifts to those who need them and are also called to the journey of healing, transformation and light. It is an ongoing journey, and I’m sure moore miracles await us all as I say…

 

Amen!

 

 

I appreciate all who have come to this place with me, and have shared the ups and downs of my discovery process. The new website is ready as I unveil and offer my services and support to you.  I am now ready to spread my wings! Thank you for flying with me – I hope you will join me on the other side of this amazing adventure! Come join me and find out “more” and www.mooremiracles.com.

 

 

How I Became A Channel + Bonus Book Chapter

Here is the story of How I Came to Be… a Channel, Healer, Mystic, Guide, Writer, Poet, Soul Seeker, Spirit-Singer, Angel, Speaker, Teacher, Compassionate One, Lover, Mother, Heart-Centered Happy-Maker, Divine Helper, Light-Giver, Hope-Bringer, Peace -Maker, Beloved One, and Miraculous Daughter of God – just to name a few!

This is a milestone for me. Not only is it my birthday this week, but it is the beginning and the ending of something significant. I have been doing this blog on this website for 5 years now, and have just been working diligently on a big change, including a new online platform, and a new way of being and doing my work. Before I share that, I’d like to share how all this came to be. After 5 years, I’ve shared bits and pieces, here and there, and if you go digging I’m sure you’ll find them!

But I thought it would be good for me, and for those who are interested and drawn, for me to share more about this process of transformation that I have been through, and its miraculous results! – and it will be a wonderful celebration for me to see how far I’ve come before I start the new!

How on earth am I going to do this in one post? Or two? Perhaps that is why I started a book. For now, I will just write and see what comes…

When I was little, my favourite song to sing was “You are My Sunshine”, and as my mother sang it to me, I then sang it to my children (though I changed the last words to “forever and a day!…”), and even now I sing it because it makes me happy. To make happy is an extraordinary gift, and one I have. I can take the most dismal situation and turn it into pure gold, treasure beyond measure, the heart as pure as snow. Laughter abounds, hearts are mended, and truth is what sings to me as a result. That is a miracle. And that has always been my gift to the world.

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When I was ten or twelve, my mother would take me to other friends or relatives’ churches on occasion. We never committed to one, but I saw the impact that faith in something greater made. I felt the energy of spirit when people felt lifted. And I believed there was a Christ, or Jesus, but he didn’t live there in a building, however consecrated, he lived in me.  I always felt the emotion in my heart somewhere, that this was a special kind of love I could not find anywhere else. Yet it was always with me, everywhere I went, when I was alone, or with other people. The truth is, I was never alone.

I never became a religious person. I never saw myself that way. I saw myself as an independent thinker, a deep spiritual seeker, even at young age. I imagine (in my now imagination anyway!), I was quite a burgeoning philosopher, as in “philo-sophia” or “lover of wisdom”, and I loved my mother’s middle name, “Sophia” for that very reason, and so I gave that middle name to my daughter also.  There was something beautiful and mystical about it, about the unknown, or the “knowing that cannot be named”. Every name is just a symbol, a reminder of what lies behind it. There is always more!…

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When I was a teen I became quite an actress, an expresser of truths, a mystical writer and puzzler of sorts. I would love to confound my teachers with my deep musings, and indeed I did! I never knew what I was going to write before I wrote it, not for creative writing anyway. It was like some mystical force went through me, my high mind, my deepest truth, my most profound learnings that came from somewhere else, and would land on the page unapologetically and without explanation. I was not into explaining as I do now, as a teacher, I was more a student who did not have the knowledge of where those ideas came from. I just “channelled” them, though I did not call it that. If I look back, I now see the seeds were sown long ago, the pictures I drew of a woman with angel’s wings, a medieval looking saint with love-filled eyes… all of these echoes of some other reality I tapped into. Never did this ability suddenly come or go away. It was always a part of me, and still is to this day.

In my twenties I “lost my way”, yet I didn’t. After being tremendously creative, I spent a long time as a “normal” working girl. I secretly hid my deep writings and would steal time to print them off of the big mainframe computer printer at work! It was my way of survival – to keep my soul alive and singing while I attended to “other things”. Work and family were most important and kept me going, as a young wife and mother. My soul expressions would have to wait – at least a little while. It wouldn’t be till over a decade later that any of it would come to fruition.

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After 9/11, a corporate takeover and a subsequent maternity leave, I finally escaped the “work force”, and let myself live more. I danced, I sang, I wrote, I spent time in theatre and as a professional actress in tv/film. It was a whirlwind and I loved it – until I went through a series of losses, including a significant death, which led me to doing A Course in Miracles, which in itself is a channelled material from the higher realms.  This deepened my inner life, and caused me to question more and more.

Then the recession hit in 2008, and my own inner seeking became heightened and acute. The world was changing. Something bigger than me was going on.  I knew I was here for more than just myself, or my own enjoyment or achievement. As much as I loved it all, it was fleeting, as everything can be in this life. I needed to return to my deeper roots, to the little girl who just knew herself without apology, and the teen who dug deep down into the mysteries of things and found sustenance there.

This time, I was reaching higher, and wanted to find my liberation, my life’s purpose and the ultimate plan for my life. I felt a deep inner call that I needed to change, to give back, and I needed to do it now!

In 2009 I went on a spiritual quest in Southampton, New York, for a screenwriting course at SUNY university. I wrote about this in Meeting Your Soul Companions. This awakened that part of me that “just knew” there was something more for me to do. I had become a partial channel through doing A Course in Miracles, and would often have written dialogues with the divine. This relieved some of the anxiety I was feeling, and directed my steps for the years ahead. These communions with my higher self/guides/angels were my “go-to” place and although I have learned other ways of reaching the inner planes through hypnosis and direct channelling, I still just “talk to” my angels, Jesus and guides as if they were right there. They are my “imaginary friends”, the ones children are told do not exist. Well, mine are still there, moving in my life, alerting me to any dangers, and pointing the way forward.

After my awakening, I had some highs and lows not knowing what to do with myself, and it was on the cusp of my 40th birthday, and that inner call and necessary change I referred to earlier had become a “DO or DIE” within me. Instead of explaining what that was, I am going to do something I’ve never done. I’m going to give you right here a chapter out of my unpublished Book of Miracles memoir, on the journey to New Orleans six years ago, and what happened to kick start this whole process…

UNPUBLISHED CHAPTER: new-orleans-chapter-krista-moore-book-of-miracles

Read, enjoy, and I will be back to finish this miraculous story, which will be the last one for this website, as I prepare to meet the new!…

Stay tuned. 🙂

To be continued…

 

P.S. You know I couldn’t possibly tell you all, right? But I will give you moore miracles  than expected!

 

 

 

What Channelling Is and Is Not

This is a quick clarifying article for myself, to be clear on what I perceive as the gift and limitations of channelling, based on my learnings from A Course in Miracles (a channelled teaching given through two American clinical and research psychologists in New York, Dr. Helen Schucman & Dr. WilliamThedford, as directed by Jesus or the Holy Spirit within).

The following explanation may seem a bit “heady” or difficult to comprehend if you have not experienced A Course in Miracles yourself, but I will not let that stop me from an attempt at sharing the wisdom and understanding with those who are interested and called to it. You may come to your own understanding a different way; one way is to do the Course yourself.

Every channel or scribe is prone to errors, but the form does not matter. What is most important is the content or message, and whether it advances us in the thinking of Love and forgiveness, to release us from error and judgement, and produce miraculous shifts in our perception that we would otherwise not have been able to do alone. That is the miracle. We are not alone.

There is a lot of skepticism, including my own, about channelled material, or those who teach and write from channelled material. I think this is a healthy skepticism for the most part. My own resistance to being a channel, or using the words that come through me when I am “channelling” a higher energy than my own, can sometimes get in the way of the illumined possibility that it is presented through me for my and/or another’s healing. Sometimes skepticism is just an elaborate defence mechanism to block the message, and delay healing.

Not all channelled material is the holy Gospel, and indeed even the “Gospels” are not without error, as they were produced by human beings who lived after the time of Jesus, and were tainted by their own perceptions and later teachings (or shall I say older teachings) that were more in line with the world’s thinking, rather than Jesus’ uncompromising message of Love. This understanding comes to me through much reading of the apocryphal Gospels, found recently from almost 2000 years ago near the time of Jesus, subsequent biblical scholarship and theory, mystical teachings of sages and saints, as well as Jesus’ own teachings through the form of A Course in Miracles.

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Very few can claim the title of perfect channel, except perhaps Jesus who walked the earth as a man and was, according to the power and timelessness of his teaching, completely identified with the Holy Spirit, God or Love. He referred to God as the Father, and was completely dependent on Him for guidance. Jesus was seen to leave his disciples and pray alone, and he also prayed to God when he healed people. He was under no illusion that he alone was the healer, as he said, “Of myself I can do nothing” (John 5:30). He also did not claim that he was the only healer, as he called his disciplines to follow his lead and perform miracles (and continues to this day), pointing all to the Kingdom of Heaven, or God within.

Having a total dependence on God or a Higher Power is not a new idea for healing. Even the secular Alcoholics Anonymous depends on it as a tenant. But how do we know that we are hearing the right Voice?

Many ask, how can we be sure we are hearing or channelling the words of God/Holy Spirit/Jesus or any other angelic apparition? Can we not deceive ourselves or be deceived by the lower mind which some call evil, lower “false” self, “wrong mind” or ego? Yes. But…

According to my understanding of and experience in doing A Course in Miracles, God gave the Holy Spirit as a communication link to all his creation that we might not lose our connection to our original Source. As human beings, the Holy Spirit uses our own minds and the language we speak, including the symbols familiar to us, to communicate these messages of Love. That is why channels all sound different according to their culture or time or intellectual ability, even though they may be channelling the same Source. Symbols are not important – they are “man-made”, but the message, the energy and the Light they represent are not. Only the messages and transmissions of Love matter.

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Further, the Holy Spirit/God/Jesus/Angels bring about a shift in perception that is not of this world. As human beings we are prone to fear, anger and unforgiveness, attack, blame, shame and guilt. This is a common problem for all human beings whether they are aware of it or not, in what some call “original sin” or unconscious guilt which resides in our minds.

However, as A Course in Miracles teaches, there is no “sin” but simply a mistake or error that occurred when we thought we separated from God but did not. Mistakes or errors require correction, not condemnation. Even if we fail temporarily, when we ask, we will receive that correction and through grace be given back to God. Our answer comes. Our job is to seek and return to our right mind, where the Holy Spirit resides, and where our memory of God resides also, so we can join with all our brothers and sisters and return to the oneness which is our true reality in Spirit/Christ/Creation. This requires trust on our part and diligence.

We find this holy place within our mind, not outside in the outer world, which is a projection of our split mind or lower consciousness. Love joins all minds as one, because we are one. This is not a concept but a sacred truth that almost all sacred texts point to, though few are without error in some form or other.

Channelling is prone to error while we are in a body, unless we are trained to reach the part of our mind that is pure Spirit, where we realize we are not a body, but are totally identified with Spirit, as Jesus demonstrated. Our images of him do not matter. Only the message matters, and that message has persisted through time in many forms, even if misunderstood…

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God/Jesus/Holy Spirit and other Ascended Masters or Beings of Light teach us through our right mind, the part of us that is always and forever holy. When we receive messages, impressions or feelings that call us to surrender our ego and see someone’s innocence with Love (“to love your neighbour as yourself”), that is the Holy Spirit doing its work within us to heal the separation and return our minds to God, to wholeness and to Love. We are really just messengers for each other to find our way back Home. Our job is to love one another, not judge. To share, not separate. We cannot do this alone. We must go together.

When I channel, my job is to let go and align myself completely (as much as possible) with my High Self/God, the truth within, and to connect to that same truth within those I am working with or thinking about (even if they are not present on the level of form). This is not an easy task and most people do not always succeed, but are simply on their way to that understanding. Each step or effort in that direction moves us closer to its realization. Time is an illusion anyway, and so we should not judge ourselves or others harshly if we temporarily fail.  Remember, we are not alone. All miracles are maximal. Something greater is at work to bring all the parts of God/Son of God/Creation back into full awareness that we are all united, and are not separate. Forgiveness is our only goal.

I know I am hearing/speaking from my Highest Self or “right mind” (the Holy Spirit/God/Love within) when the messages or energies that comes through are:

  • Loving in tone, quality or feeling
  • Peaceful and calm no matter what is happening on the outside
  • Non-judgemental (judging only ideas as true or false, not people)
  • Wholly without blame or anger
  • Beyond my own limited self-perceptions and pointing to a much larger, higher perspective which includes everyone equally
  • Fair and uncompromising in the reality that God is Love and only love, and all beings are loved equally by God without exception
  • Totally forgiving of my and others’ errors (without taking sides!) and quickly corrective and helpful in pointing the way to right thought or action
  • Transformative and enlightening, turning my mind from any heavy, fearful thoughts (errors) to a holy, loving, encouraging and light-filled Vision of Love which gives hope to myself and others (as we are all joined)
  • Healing on the mental/physical/emotional and/or spiritual level (whether we see physical evidence or not, as all healing is of the mind first, as the Course teaches).
  • Relieving of any heavy burdens I have placed upon myself, removing any guilt, and quickly turning me toward what is truly helpful, beneficial and healing for myself and others (as we are all joined)
  • Positive and life-affirming, with helpful instruction or constructive correction that result in positive effects, even if not immediate
  • Consistent and unchanging: the form of the words may change, as the world is based on the shifting illusions of time, with symbols that we have created to communicate to each other in various ways and for various purposes; but God does not change, and the content or messages of Love should be holy without change, consistent and uncompromising in their unwillingness to veer into fear or justify anger for any reason. The meaning behind the words is wholly reliable, representing a thought system of Love that is ever-present and represents truth, even while it seems to appear within a temporary illusion.

In other words, we made God in our image; but God does not make images and he is only Love. All messages that come from the Holy Spirit are symbols of God which is Love.

When I make a mistake in my channelling (attempt to reach and speak from the Holy Spirit/Love within), I recognize it by how it influences me and my emotions. When I hear correctly and listen and follow the guidance, I feel peaceful inside, happy or content, powerful even. When I listen to the shifting sands and confusing illusions of this world and think with the “wrong mind” (my lower selfish thoughts or ego which projects onto this world), I lose sleep and do not feel at peace. I am at war with myself /others or the illusions I have made. This is not real.

Only the Love of God is real. And that Love is a shared reality. Channelling is a way of reaching God or the Highest Mind, and sharing that Love and wisdom. 

Lastly, channelling or channels of God are not special. All minds are one with God, and all have unique gifts to share. However, not all of God’s channels are open or aware now. That is why God uses the Holy Spirit to reach those minds that are more open, to answer those who are still seeking, that they might be given assistance in the form that is best suited to their needs at the time. All forms are temporary.

The most important lesson is not to worry about the form that a channel or message takes or whether angels or other ascended beings are “real” or not. We are not here to argue. We are here to love. All are one in Christ/Christ-consciousness/Love or our Highest Mind/Source, regardless of our language or understanding. What is most important is not the specific words or symbols (appearances), but the message and content which comes to bring healing and forgiveness and raise us back to God, where we belong. We all come from and return to the same Source.

I hope this helps, as it has helped me clarify my own role, as a temporary channel, and not the perfect representative or only and “ultimate” truth. Those who are drawn to the messages that come through a specific channel need them. And those who are not are either not ready, or have found another way. Again, the form is not important. Only that we find our way back to God and realize we are all the same.

Amen.

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Creating Joy Through Change

Change is inevitable; Joy is not. Joy is a choice! Although I may resist at first and have many doubts along the way, I have found (through the gifts of channelling,  spiritual direction and hypnosis), that I can let go of my past and embrace change with more Joy for myself and others, which leads to unexpected miracles…

After experiencing a dynamic shift in my life over the last few years, including becoming a channel (more on what that is in my next post!) I received a message that I would be doing my spiritual work in a “centre”. Having recently found and lost the AHA! centre in Toronto due to things beyond my control, I felt both elated and then confused as to what to do next…

So I went on a personal trek of the soul – journeying first to old Quebec City for some fun with my family…

 

…then on to Saint John, New Brunswick to see my dear friend and fellow channel/hypnotist, Elizabeth Rose… Elizabeth and I have both experienced this transformational process together since 2012, including the highs and lows of facing change, and have had to make significant, unexpected changes in our lives as a result. (We also manage to laugh and cry heartily at ourselves and the amazing things that come on our path). She has been a life-saver in times of uncertainty, and a truly gifted and healing channel. I knew she would understand and help me find my next step…

Just a year and a half ago we were sitting in a restaurant in Saint John when the angels spoke through her and announced she would be opening a healing centre in her tiny cottage (then filled with boxes and old furniture from decades ago). Needless to say she was overwhelmed! As we talked, I suddenly got an inspiration and the name popped into my head:

“I know what it is supposed to be called!… ” I announced.

“What?!” she asked stunned.  

“The Rose Cottage…” 

Eizabeth Rose at The Rose Cottage NB

Eizabeth Rose at The Rose Cottage NB

We both knew it was right. Not only is Rose her last name, but it is also represents love to many, and is one of the highest frequency creations on the planet – some even reference it to the mystical teachings of Jesus Christ.

She later added “Hypnosis School and Retreat Centre” and within 6 months, after much effort, moving things out, clearing and revamping, as well as giving up her previous life of security and creature comforts (including a high-paying corporate job in the investment world), she now lives a simple, healthy life in total service to others, holding groups and seeing clients from all over the world, from a tiny place called The Rose Cottage NB… 

On this latest visit, we did more channelling, walks, and inner work, and as always managed to find humour and fun in the midst of emotional turmoil and change. Already a houseful, including two young teenage girls, Elizabeth also held her weekly mentoring meeting in the small but open and beautiful space, overflowing with full seats for an evening of channelled messages, group healing and hypnosis.

As a full channel, Elizabeth (and I) never know what is going to happen next – we simply follow the guidance. One woman experiencing grief received healing messages from her recently deceased loved one. Others experienced themselves as pure light, and were able to climb higher in their level of consciousness and see their guides and angels. Another felt elated to have an intimate dialogue (through Elizabeth’s channel) with a lively, loving (and quite humourous!) Jesus. It was truly awe-inspiring for some, and life-changing for all. They continue to meet every Monday for Channelled messages, Healing and Hypnosis, with new people arriving weekly.

Elizabeth and I co-channelled to close off, and experienced past lives with two participants in which we all reunited as souls and healed our collective past. A gentle reminder that we are eternally bonded to many in our current lives, and our seemingly transient relationships are far more than we think or understand. It was truly liberating and joyful to feel so connected to each other and experience our eternal selves. 

Before we left, Elizabeth channelled that I was to open my own centre, and “grow where you are planted.” In a follow-up session, she channelled the title:

“Miracles Grow Here… in Your Heart”

It was perfect! I had been moving around so much on retreats and working out of other’s healing centres, I didn’t realize I could work miracles in my very own space, wherever I already am!

As we open and heal our hearts by doing the work, we follow the path of Joy even in the face of sorrow and strife. Now we are ready to receive the gifts that were waiting for us…

Out of this miraculous experience, inspiration came, and by the time I got home, I was cooking up a vegetarian storm with zest, going barefoot walking through the parks (see Grounded and Growing), opening my heart more with loved ones (see Feeling God When You Feel So Alone), and finally preparing my new healing centre by clearing rooms, painting with fresh light colours, and getting ready to welcome my growing community…

Miracles Grow Here… in your Heart

All of this came through the channelling, through connection and love, and through venturing out of my comfort zone and embracing change with an attitude of transforming sorrow and confusion into Joy and Miracles…. 

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After 2 years, it looks like things have finally come full circle: First we received the message to create a healing centre in Saint John, and now in Toronto. My friend will be returning to help me welcome you and experience this transformation during our launch event:

MIRACLES GROW HERE! 


Thanks to Elizabeth Rose, for tuning in to deliver the message of inspiration for this amazing turn of events, and to my family and friends for their continuing blessings and support as part of this incredible journey!

 

How do you create Joy in the midst of change? Do you need a little help finding your way through the changes, just as I did? Look here for the gifts of Spiritual Direction/Channelling/Hypnosis. 

 

Grounded & Growing

Like everyone else, I have experienced change or loss in my professional and personal life, sometimes leading to feelings of grief, pain and uncertainty.  It it is easy to be tempted to dismiss these feelings and say, “suck it up and keep going” or some other friendlier reminder like “these things happen, change is good, go on”.  But what happens when we don’t feel that way yet? When we’re still feeling puzzled, or depressed, stricken or shocked?

As a channel, I have learned to go within in times of struggle. In my last post, Feeling God When You Feel So Alone, I talked about how I found shelter when it was too difficult to “go within” by myself.

Another way I discovered was on a recent walk with a friend who silently held space for my transformative experience…

The trees provided a shady overhang, and the air was thick with dewy perfume. I was wearing inconvenient flip-flops, not realizing we would be walking on uneven terrain – and I said they were bothering me.

“Why not take them off?” I heard beside me, and without much hesitation, because that is the kind of person I am :), I did.

This may not seem like a big deal, but suddenly I was entranced as my feet touched the ground. The earth felt cool and moist, and I noticed the raw and richly packed earth making a path for me, with the odd random twig or leaf.  It felt like such a relief! But I didn’t say anything, because I was too engrossed in what I was doing to comment.

My friend, however, noticed my change in  mood, and was entranced with me and what I was doing, and so took pictures.

Here are some pics of the unfolding scene…

The silence and concentration required to watch my step, caused me to feel very grounded and to “keep going” without pausing to think about it. I had to! If I didn’t pay attention I might step on a rock, or worse a tiny frog! So I focused where I was, and enjoyed the feeling of putting one foot in front of the other – and the soft receptivity of the earth to hold onto.

It’s amazing how rubber shoes and other outer-wear implements shield us from the elements, but also from our fundamental connection to the earth and our interior nature. Even our feelings underneath. Once the shield is dropped, we are laid bare to feel vulnerable, while at the same time protected by something greater than ourselves.

Our vulnerability makes us feel raw (including the bottoms of our feet!), but our hearts can feel warmer, feel felt and seen, witnessed and heard.  Our mother is waiting for us, and we can let go and drop down to the great unseen.

What did this do for me? Well, it didn’t solve all my problems or talk back to me. It didn’t tell me where to go or what to do. But it provided a soft path to follow, and the permission to be me. 

Being grounded, literally, to the earth provided a sweet balm of healing, an inner well to draw from when the mental and emotional self feels too dry or unfathomable. Dipping down into the forest floor, feeling the world trembling with every footstep or forest critter’s movements, every wind through tree, gave me a sense of purpose and belonging. I can be here. I know how to do this. It is like I remembered a treasury from being a child who doesn’t worry about the shoes on her feet!

The world is an open door, and the ground is always there to greet you, to run across barefoot, to play on, or even to lie down upon and stair at the open sky or branches overhead and ask, “Why?” and just listen with profound innocence.

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Being grounded gave me a sense of innocence that remembers it is still a growing thing, like a seedling, totally dependent on the earth beneath her feet. I was connected to everything, not a solitary tree, but with roots expanding and touching other trees, a community of living things. And my friend, who was my usual companion, didn’t have to speak. Didn’t have to guide me. Just being there to witkrista walking smileness, and perhaps offer a hand as I walked over a fallen branch, was enough for me.

Being grounded and growing within came as a surprise to me. It didn’t come only from praying in solitude in my silent haven (though I lo
ve and rely upon that too); it didn’t come from talking to and fro about the problem; it came nestled in the trees, and down below on the ground, where I was busy, walking.

The greatest surprise in going forward came from putting one foot in front of the other, and finding there was always something there to catch me.

 

 

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Feeling God When You Feel So Alone

One of the downfalls of being a “spiritual” person (we are all spiritual – but that is a misnomer I sometimes give myself and others who are dedicated to the path of enlightenment/ truth/ spirituality/ authenticity/ love), is that I don’t often give myself permission to fail or fall.  Or is that perfectionism? My article on Spiritual Perfectionism deals with that topic. But here, I want to go a little deeper.

One of the most difficult things for me and perhaps others to do, and one of the things I do the best when I do it, is to be real and raw when something is bothering me. To tell the truth. When I do it I sometimes say too much and risk disapproval or abandonment. (The worst abandonment, though, is self-abandonment, and so given the opportunity I will choose the former). And when I don’t risk it, I bury it under a deep dark place because, after all, ‘I am the light’. The danger of knowing I am the light, and yet I feel darkness, is that I may pretend it is not there, hide it, or worse, give in to it. Alone, I may be tempted to believe that there is no hope, that no one hears me, and that my darkness is the truth about me. This is not the truth, and yet when I FEEL that way, it is the most challenging time to reach for light.

So what do I do when I feel so alone, struggling with something seemingly on my own, and yet not alone? Even surrounded at times by well-meaning family and loved ones, I can feel as if no one understands, I can feel judged or wounded, even if no one says anything against me – it is a thought I have about myself, that hasn’t yet found its way into the light to be healed. How can I find my way through that darkness and reach for the light within?

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One of my friends said something profoundly wise the other day as she listened with compassion – a rare gift. Knowing me as she does, that I am one to hide away when the going gets tough, she coaxed me out and provided a safe cushion to lean on while I unloaded myself. She said, “What if going within is not something we have to do by ourselves? What if going within just means going into your heart, and that means reaching out to other people, soul connection? Maybe connection isn’t just a solitary thing, maybe it can be done together because we are all connected?”

As a channel, I have learned, rather reluctantly because I have never been a good meditator, to go into a deep trance (hypnosis) and access my spiritual essence, and even talk to guides and angels. You would think, given this incredible gift, that I would never feel alone. “You can talk to Heaven? My God! Lucky you! I wish I had a direct line to God!” Well… I do. So do you, but I STILL feel alone. I don’t say this to give you no hope, I say this because the deeper message here, is that maybe God can’t be found by myself.

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Maybe God is a two-way street – or better yet, an intersection – or a busy square where many souls greet. Maybe God cannot be found locked away in a solitary cave or room (though some have found him there, too). Maybe God greets us most when we are in love, when we are forlorn and being picked up by a friend, when our husband hugs us after we feel broken and fragile, when we listen to children playing in the pool, walk barefoot on the dewy grass, or let the dog lick our face.

Maybe God is in the details. In the laughter and tears, in the rolling hills, in the depressing days of sadness where we feel so lost, and the miraculous times of healing when our hearts receive the love and hope we so desperately need from just the right person – or another unlikely place.  

Maybe love is not just in our pleas to God, but in the listening and receiving.

As a ‘spiritual person’ (I will say it only one more time, I promise), I can also be tempted to think that it is OK to give love, to extend myself beyond my own limits for others so they feel loved, but it is not OK for me to receive it, to need it, to want it, to grab for it, and even to lose it. It is not OK for me to fail or fall down. To feel alone. To feel small. It is not OK for me to be a human being who talks to angels, and sometimes would rather be with a flesh-and-bones friend whom I can see, touch and feel.

Maybe it’s OK to admit that God isn’t up there, all alone in his high cloud without me – maybe it’s OK to greet God right here, in my own world, no matter how lonely or messed up I feel. Maybe God is right here, right now, with me and you as we read and write these things, together. And in the illumination that comes from finally letting the dark cloud out of my head, and letting my heart reach out one more time – to God only knows who. Because in that moment of truth, that moment of connection, wisdom comes, and communion.

And isn’t that what God and love is all about? 

 

Let me know how you reach God when times are tough. Write a comment or email your private share here. Thank you for sharing.

 

Spiritual Perfectionism


Do you ever get so caught up trying to be perfect, to do everything right, walking a fine line that you forget to just be yourself?  I decided I needed to write this one just for me (Of course I hope you benefit too, as the more personal ones tend to!)

As much as I want to teach right now, let me just express (that is me talking to myself again). You see, we do have more than one side, and that is precisely what we’re on about here.

So, how do I live in my spirit and still live as a human being? Good question! I don’t. I mean, not always. It seems that sometimes, I am half the time here, and half the time somewhere else.  But in those rare times when I am consciously both here AND aware of my spiritual centre, I am at my best.

But that is not this post.  This post is about when I’m not. This post is about when I’m lost. This post is about when I’m confused, cranky, miserable, haven’t had enough rest, or just want to rebel and have a beer (or two). I am not perfect, and sometimes that is the greatest spiritual lesson of all.

AND, sometimes, sometimes, it is even necessary. Meaning that having FUN, and forgetting about my spiritual self, even for a moment, and delving into the purely human (evil? see that’s my Puritan speaking again!) self, connected to family, friends, and the everyday is just as  powerful, informing, healing and extraordinary as meditating, channellingor healing others (like at the Hive Open to Spirit series last week).

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Krista having fun at the Hive 

You know, sometimes I need a little TLC too. I need a little break from the SUPERconscious mind to just be good ole’ fashioned conscious and ALIVE!

WOW. I’m so rebellious sometimes. And that makes me laugh too, because I really don’t do that much wrong?… 

EXCEPT – when I yell, get angry, threaten with a woman’s hormonal irrationalism, cry or just fall down and weep. That can be quite a serious thing. And when I do that, I tend to beat myself up that I’m not that spiritual after all. How could I fail? How could I be all that AND all those other wonderful things?

LIKE – heavenly, beautiful, funny, dynamic, silly, inspiring, singing, wonderful, remarkable, happy, transcendent and dreamy?

WELL…  Because I CAN be.  I was created to be in a body, that is real on the physical plane, attached to an emotional body that is somewhere within that responding to everything, connected to a mental body that thinks ALL THE TIME, and finally, a spiritual body that both CREATES, AND TRANSCENDS everything. You see? It really can be quite complicated.

SO… the next time you decide to judge yourself, look at me! I’m not perfect, and…

YET, I AM PERFECT, ANYWAY!

BECAUSE GOD MADE ME.

HA!

(That made me feel better, anyway. And hopefully, you too!)

LOTS OF LOVE,

FROM

ME.

 

P.S. Do you have a comment about your own spiritual “imperfections” – please comment below or send to me privately.  Thank you!

How to Forgive Others

Sometimes “people” get the best of us (or so we think). The truth is, we are all suffering from the same dis-ease: being human!  Here is how I began to resolve this very human problem and achieve greater peace and clarity.

I had been tested lately, with an old pattern that caused me to be angry with myself and others. Just when I thought I was above all the madness, it hit me. And my irrational brain fired off chemicals of alarm and warfare. Things came out of my mouth that I knew were not true, and yet I felt they were. I would defend them to the death, even though I felt miserable saying them. I wallowed in self-pity and despair…
It took me days to figure this one out! How could I have been given so much insight and wisdom, and still suffer from this same problem? How long would it take to finally be rid of it and not feel such hate, such victimhood?

I was even angry at my angels for not saving me from this devastating problem. Although nothing on the outside was really wrong, on the inside I felt such pain and sorrow, and just wanted them to take it away and fix everything. Where was my miracle now? Now, I was really mad!

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This was a very humbling dis-ease. It was a dis-ease of mind, that we all suffer from on occasion, some more than others. I couldn’t see the benefit to this kind of feeling, and yet I couldn’t quite let go of it either. I wanted revenge – not in some evil way, just a little punishment for the one who had offended or hurt me? These are not thoughts I am proud of, but I confess they were there. I wanted them to change and say they were sorry. I wanted them to come to me downcast and change their behaviour towards me. I wanted everything to change except me!

Does this sound familiar?

Be the change you want to see in the world. –  Gandhi

 

Then in my frustration and despair, I was growing impatient for a solution. But more than this, I wanted to understand everything so I wouldn’t repeat it. That was worth much more than a temporary fix or a ‘just make it go away’ attitude.

In my meditation I asked for the angels to help me. I was still angry, and I expressed all my feelings without holding back – I just let it all out, tears and all! Funny enough, there was a lot of grief under there – as many experts believe anger hides a deeper hurt, pain or sorrow. I saw this as a long-standing problem, not just a recent event. I wanted to resolve it at a deeper level, and be free of it. I cried out in pain, but what I was really asking for was love and clarity…

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Then it came. Though I was doubtful in my present condition that it was possible, I listened for guidance and it came. I heard the still, small, voice, this time in the voice of Mary (Mother Mary), and Jesus, who guided me to go up a little higher, in my consciousness or imagination, and stand with them in heaven. This was unusual. Usually, we ask them to come down to us! Well, this time, I was being asked to climb a little higher in my consciousness, and imagine that I could be raised up to where they were standing.

I arrived in what they call the “interlife” where souls go between lives, where we see the bigger picture and learn our lessons. I could see why this was a good idea, given that I wanted clarity, and couldn’t see it at all from my limited perspective.  Instead of seeing with human eyes, they asked me to stand side by side with them (squeezing their hands) and looking out upon the world and my situation through their eyes and my newer perspective, and then to tell them what I saw.

Then it came to me. I saw that I was really being tested and challenged to overcome my anger, not just for myself, but for all of humanity.  My healing was healing everyone involved!  I no longer blamed myself for this problem, and saw that it was something that affected me and many, many more for generations, including those I had been angry at!  If I could overcome this anger and learn to forgive myself and them, I would be free, and in time, so would they. This was really a service, a difficult but very important service, and I was being guided and helped to make it through with flying colours.

All would be OK.

I also felt no anger while I was in that state of mind. I felt a peace and calm, with a sense of understanding and clarity.  I saw the purpose in everything. The situation and future were so much brighter than I had imagined! All things would improve if I could complete this one task. Forgive myself, forgive others, and let go of the anger. See it as a service, and remember the larger perspective. Then I would be patient, and not demand others change for me. I could see that it was me that was in the process of changing, being guided to a whole new way of thinking and being that would liberate both them and me.

This was good news!

For one who did not, in my limited smaller perspective, think it was possible to feel better about this, I did. The anger was gone from me. I didn’t need the other person to do anything to deserve this happiness for myself. I was forgiven. And I could enjoy happiness and peace of mind again. This was the lesson.

Forgive us our trespasses, as we forgive those who trespassed against us. –  The Lord’s Prayer

And with this renewed sense of calm and inner purpose, I began to write about this very topic, and share my insights with those who could be helped by them. And I could begin to enjoy being my wise, loving self again. 🙂

And that was a miracle to me!

 

P.S. Have you ever experienced forgiveness of someone and felt the benefits yourself? Share in the comments below.