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The Path of Love

Recently, as I wrote in my last post, I was struggling with the true source and nature of my spiritual path, wondering if what I was channeling was really true. There was so much doubt and confusion stirred up within me from my own innate battle with doubt, but also excaserbated from others who had gone through a similar struggle, like the angel card reader and spiritual author, Doreen Virtue.

I knew at the deepest level I was working with Jesus, the true Jesus, if there is any other kind, because the love I felt and the impact was truly amazing. People cried at times, or saw the love on my face, and felt drawn or taken aback. I knew it wasn’t just me or my love I was conveying, and yet, I doubted.

Then I got caught up in the controversies; watching Youtube videos on the various conspiracies of whether the Bible was true or not, whether Jesus actually lived, what he said and taught. I listened to both the skeptics and the believers, the new-agers and the traditionalists. I became worried that I would never be able to sort it all out, and it started to gnaw away at my peace and sense of purpose.

My lack of trust had me even avoiding my own gift! I was resistant to channeling for fear I wasn’t reaching the highest, and not wanted to be influenced by anything less. That fear didn’t seem to block my gift entirely, however, as it was readily available for those who needed it, and I was relieved when they expressed gratitude and confirmed they felt better.

Then a friend whom I confided in told me that if it wasn’t for my gift of channeling, she might not have made it. I was shocked. I recalled others who told me similarly that of all the healing modalities and things they had tried, this gift that came through me was the thing that helped them the most, gave them peace of mind, confidence, clarity, encouragement, and most importantly, love.

This wowed me. I felt comforted by their messages, and buoyed up to keep pursuing my path…

Today, as I went back to my meditation and channeling practice for myself, the presence of Jesus and the angels came through so strongly, I cried. I sobbed because it opened my heart, and I felt restored in my faith that what I do is based on a deep truth inside, and this filled me with hope, faith and love…

Suddenly this passage came to me, and when I looked it up, I realized, God had answered my question directly, and my faith was completely restored:

Love bears all things,

believes all things,

hopes all things,

endures all things,

Love never fails.

1 Corinthians, a famous letter of St. Paul, continues: 

“But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be restrained; where there is knowledge, it will be dismissed. 9For we know in part and we prophesy in part, 10but when the perfect comes, the partial passes away.

11When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I set aside childish ways. 12Now we see but a dim reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.

13And now these three remain: faith, hope, and love; but the greatest of these is love.” 

 

I realized it didn’t matter what other people believed

or didn’t believe;  what matters most is 

Love.

Whether I will ever know fully or just in part, whether I have all the answers or not – I am bolstered, encouraged and gifted in my faith to just Love.

Thank you, God for this incredible gift!  

I decided I will no longer focus on the nature of the gift itself, but on its purpose:

I will give this Love from You to all who come to me, with all of my heart, my courage, and my faith, putting all my trust in You.

This was a miracle! To keep me on my path, so I would never give up. No matter what we call it, I knew:

My true path is Love.

And now I can just get on with it!

Thank you, Thank you, Thank you!

Amen

 


Krista Moore is an Angelic Channel, Hypnotist, Healer and Spiritual Director who uses her gifts to channel for private clients and the public on her BlogTalkRadio show. To learn more about Krista’s gift, and see/hear how it may help you, go #MiraclesGrowHere at:

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Discerning the Good & the True

How do we know what is good and true and worth believing in? How do we reconcile our beliefs when there is such a buffet of spiritual ideas and choices available to us, that it becomes difficult to discern?

When I am not sure which way is up, it can be a very uncomfortable feeling. No one wants to feel that what they thought or believed may actually be harming them, and what they’ve been fighting against might be the very thing worth hanging on to!  It feels embarrassing not to know sometimes, and to make mistakes. That is human. It feels good to come to understanding, discernment and trust in what’s good.

I had to re-examine some of my beliefs and their source this summer, as the din of choices and clashing worldviews became too much.  Even though I have always been very open to new ideas, my boilerplate to return to again and again, has always been Jesus. Even at my most esoteric or “woo-woo”, my life would always find its way back to him. I was never an avid Bible thumper, though I believed in most of its tenents, while priding myself on being well-rounded and having many, many tools in my toolkit.

I read and studied A Course in Miracles and, though difficult at times, I found the loving tenants of never attacking others, loving your brother as yourself and forgiving everything from a place of purity not piousness, truly rewarding spiritually.

 

We have to care for our souls in a way that feeds

and nourishes us, without sacrificing what is

good, while boldly letting go of what is

no longer useful.

 

This lesson became very apparent as I faced my garden this summer…

In my garden there were many plants. I failed to weed for many years leaving a wildness that is beyond “wildflower” and more like weed failure. I felt guilty and didn’t want to hurt anything (what a great way to justify not doing anything!).  I felt paralyzed and overwhelmed by the chaos staring back at me – neglect; and too many possibilities of what could be better, that I didn’t know how to implement it on my own.

I needed the help of a qualified gardener, someone who could discern weed from flower, and help me face the weeds, pull them out, and even cover patches with yard bags to suppress them and make way for fresh new soil – a clear space, a clear mind…

And then we planted. We planted only what was beautiful, what was not competitive or strangling other plants, what grew where it was planted and complemented the other flowers. Not to mention created a buzzing haven for butterflies, birds and bees!

Within a month or two of real work, I had a beautiful garden. And that simple beauty allowed me the peace and clarity of mind I needed to do the necessary tending of the garden to protect and prevent those weeds from returning.

If something is beautiful, good and true,

we are more likely to protect it.

 

As above so below…

In the same way, in my spiritual life, I had allowed certain things in my life that I once thought were “OK” from a broader “everything is good, don’t judge anything” perspective; upon further reflection, study and surveying of the results of my actions, I had to reconsider them. And though they got me where I am, holding on to them did not bear good “fruit”.

For example, I found some ideas or tenets of the new age spiritual world a bit too permissive, or self-centered, and not in line with the basic guidelines of right and wrong, good and bad, which although not popular anymore, were created to protect us, not to harm us. It’s not popular to “judge” others for their choices, but it is very necessary to discern for myself.

Some things have to go into the fire of self-

reflection, release and purification…

 

Now I am starting to see the beauty, goodness and truth of a work in progress, without seeking outside of myself for instant gratification. I am slowly letting go of what no longer serves or resonates with me, and starting to see the value in doing the harder work of planting and protecting what is truly good and beautiful (like family, friends, service and spiritual life).

Where I once saw something as more desirable because it seemed easily attainable, instant or popular, I now see these ideas more like the “wildflower” weeds that grew up unabated in my garden, strangling out the flowers, and needing to be tamed.

I learned that I must not only nurture myself out of self-interest, but also consider the hopes, dreams and needs of the ones around me who depend on me, just like those beautiful flowers in my garden, for water, protection (“weeding”), light and love…

Each of us has to decide for ourself what is worth

keeping and nurturing, and what is not worth our

time or effort after all.

My “Internal Gardener” or Teacher helps me keep things straight on the path of mental, physical, emotional and spiritual growth.  When I get confused, weighed down by too many options, too much information, or regret, I go within, and take the time to sort it out.

It is my own conscience which tells me what is true and good, which path leads home, which Voice leads to a more loving outcome, and which leads only to sorrow, fear and pain.

Then my heart can sing again, as I embrace the miracles that come from creating and focusing on the good and the true in my life, and forgiving everything else…

The purity of our hearts (and not our heads)

will always lead us home to You…

Thank you!

Amen!

 


Krista Moore hosts “Channel of Light” blogtalk radio show where she channels live for guest callers and listeners to help them receive guidance and healing; and Miracles Grow Here events for those seeking on the spiritual path. For more go to: www.mooremiracles.com.

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Finding Truth Together

We were never meant to struggle alone. Even if we feel that we are alone, we still have God/the Holy Spirit/J or any other name you give that Holy Presence within. But when it is difficult to discern by yourself, it is helpful to have others to gather with and find that peaceable truth together.

I have always believed in the value of groups. Although I see many clients who like to work one on one, I also see the movement and miracles when women and men are in a sacred circle together. There is nothing like it. More can happen when we recognize the beauty and the common desires of each other.

Something opens to a higher level when we realize we want what another wants, when we help someone as if they are the same as ourself. When we hear the truth out of our own lips which we could not voice before. This love is universal. And it is very powerful.

You can seek alone, in partners, in small groups or a large community. It doesn’t matter. What matters is what you feel drawn to. God gives in mysterious ways. Just be open and join with another for the purpose of finding the answer, a better way, greater happiness and joy, healing and health, love and kindness and compassion for all. In this hope, you can never go wrong.

“Wherever two or more are gathered, there I am in the midst.” (Mathew 18:20)

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Inner Journeys of the Heart & Soul

I have always been a soulful person. It never occurred to me to be anything but.  For the last four years I have been taking people on outer journeys through spiritual retreats to beautiful destinations.  

Although this is a wonderful way to connect and be away from our lives and experience something new, what really happens is we go on an inner journey of the heart and soul.

A friend/client said to me today, “Every time I am in one of your groups, I just sit down and cry.” Why is that? Do I say something terribly offensive or frightening?! (I hope not!) “No…” he said, and I knew what he was talking about. There is an unspoken intention to connect deeply, a feeling of safety to shed the masks we all wear, and to dive deep into the work of the soul – where our hearts have permission to express themselves and let go…

The truth is, I can do this work anywhere, or nowhere. Sharing the heart and soul is truly what I love to do, and what I’ve been doing since I was a kid. I write about it, act about it, talk about it, sing about it, and ask questions about it, lots of questions, to try to delve into the ‘heart’ of it.  I describe this work as ‘transformative’. That is not a fancy word for different. It means something is revealed to us on the inside, so that things no longer feel the same on the outside, and because of this, our outer world changes as well, sometimes significantly.  What changes is me, not the people, places or things around me.  

Actually, I just become myself!

Let me give you an example:

You can go away for a vacation. And it is a wonderful vacation, with a beautiful beach, sunsets, poolside drinks. You may feel relaxed, at ease, comfortable. You may even have entertaining guests and friends to get along with and go on adventures with. This may be cathartic to some degree, and it may be just what you need. But when you get back to your life, was it truly transformative? Or do you go back to your routine and responsibilities and forget what happened…

A transformative adventure starts on the inside – even if it is done in an external environment. The environment may be conducive, it may be special in some way, it may trigger our ability to connect because of its spiritual, evocative or authentic nature – just enough to peel off our false selves and inspire a true way of seeing or being. The transformation doesn’t end when you get home. It intensifies because you have shifted.

Why do I want to change anything at all? I don’t. What I really want to do is be honest. And I guess that is what I give other people permission to do as well – to just be themselves: to cry, to laugh, to wonder, to witness, to be confused, to be fascinated, to be inspired, to be lifted. So it is not something different we are acquiring – like a new skill or talent or a new dress;  what we want is something we all yearn for, seek for, live and die for:

We all want love. 

And in that process of discovery, which is a lifelong one, when we find ourselves a little less frightened, and feel safe to ‘come home’, we can uncover our spiritual essence, our true nature and gifts, our real and raw selves just as we are…

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At this moment, I have no outer journeys lined up, other than in my own town! I am exploring the inside more and more, and inviting others in. To come out of hiding and find out what it feels like to just be loved.

Not everyone wants to share, and that is perfectly alright. What I have found in my groups, is that when someone has a moment of truth, when they share of their heart and soul, something magical happens: we fall in love with them and each other. It happens again and again. We forget where we are, whether sitting in a living room or a fancy hotel, or outside under the stars. Suddenly our hearts are so much bigger, and the tasks so much easier because we can be ourselves. Because we listened and witnessed. Because we loved.

That is the spiritual path I am on. I invite you to join me as we cross our paths in this moment, finding the truth and the beauty of it all. The wonders to behold. Whether happy or sad, in understanding or in pain, the soul is the most beautiful creation, and only longs to be itself. My job, my purpose, my quest, is to bring mine home to itself. Where we are all connected in the deepest ways, beyond the shifting of time and space. There is nothing I would rather do, write about, or talk about. Nothing in the world. There is nothing more precious than your soul.

Amen.


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Grounded & Growing

Like everyone else, I have experienced change or loss in my professional and personal life, sometimes leading to feelings of grief, pain and uncertainty.  It it is easy to be tempted to dismiss these feelings and say, “suck it up and keep going” or some other friendlier reminder like “these things happen, change is good, go on”.  But what happens when we don’t feel that way yet? When we’re still feeling puzzled, or depressed, stricken or shocked?

As a channel, I have learned to go within in times of struggle. In my last post, Feeling God When You Feel So Alone, I talked about how I found shelter when it was too difficult to “go within” by myself.

Another way I discovered was on a recent walk with a friend who silently held space for my transformative experience…

The trees provided a shady overhang, and the air was thick with dewy perfume. I was wearing inconvenient flip-flops, not realizing we would be walking on uneven terrain – and I said they were bothering me.

“Why not take them off?” I heard beside me, and without much hesitation, because that is the kind of person I am :), I did.

This may not seem like a big deal, but suddenly I was entranced as my feet touched the ground. The earth felt cool and moist, and I noticed the raw and richly packed earth making a path for me, with the odd random twig or leaf.  It felt like such a relief! But I didn’t say anything, because I was too engrossed in what I was doing to comment.

My friend, however, noticed my change in  mood, and was entranced with me and what I was doing, and so took pictures.

Here are some pics of the unfolding scene…

The silence and concentration required to watch my step, caused me to feel very grounded and to “keep going” without pausing to think about it. I had to! If I didn’t pay attention I might step on a rock, or worse a tiny frog! So I focused where I was, and enjoyed the feeling of putting one foot in front of the other – and the soft receptivity of the earth to hold onto.

It’s amazing how rubber shoes and other outer-wear implements shield us from the elements, but also from our fundamental connection to the earth and our interior nature. Even our feelings underneath. Once the shield is dropped, we are laid bare to feel vulnerable, while at the same time protected by something greater than ourselves.

Our vulnerability makes us feel raw (including the bottoms of our feet!), but our hearts can feel warmer, feel felt and seen, witnessed and heard.  Our mother is waiting for us, and we can let go and drop down to the great unseen.

What did this do for me? Well, it didn’t solve all my problems or talk back to me. It didn’t tell me where to go or what to do. But it provided a soft path to follow, and the permission to be me. 

Being grounded, literally, to the earth provided a sweet balm of healing, an inner well to draw from when the mental and emotional self feels too dry or unfathomable. Dipping down into the forest floor, feeling the world trembling with every footstep or forest critter’s movements, every wind through tree, gave me a sense of purpose and belonging. I can be here. I know how to do this. It is like I remembered a treasury from being a child who doesn’t worry about the shoes on her feet!

The world is an open door, and the ground is always there to greet you, to run across barefoot, to play on, or even to lie down upon and stair at the open sky or branches overhead and ask, “Why?” and just listen with profound innocence.

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Being grounded gave me a sense of innocence that remembers it is still a growing thing, like a seedling, totally dependent on the earth beneath her feet. I was connected to everything, not a solitary tree, but with roots expanding and touching other trees, a community of living things. And my friend, who was my usual companion, didn’t have to speak. Didn’t have to guide me. Just being there to witkrista walking smileness, and perhaps offer a hand as I walked over a fallen branch, was enough for me.

Being grounded and growing within came as a surprise to me. It didn’t come only from praying in solitude in my silent haven (though I lo
ve and rely upon that too); it didn’t come from talking to and fro about the problem; it came nestled in the trees, and down below on the ground, where I was busy, walking.

The greatest surprise in going forward came from putting one foot in front of the other, and finding there was always something there to catch me.

 

 

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Feeling God When You Feel So Alone

One of the downfalls of being a “spiritual” person (we are all spiritual – but that is a misnomer I sometimes give myself and others who are dedicated to the path of enlightenment/ truth/ spirituality/ authenticity/ love), is that I don’t often give myself permission to fail or fall.  Or is that perfectionism? My article on Spiritual Perfectionism deals with that topic. But here, I want to go a little deeper.

One of the most difficult things for me and perhaps others to do, and one of the things I do the best when I do it, is to be real and raw when something is bothering me. To tell the truth. When I do it I sometimes say too much and risk disapproval or abandonment. (The worst abandonment, though, is self-abandonment, and so given the opportunity I will choose the former). And when I don’t risk it, I bury it under a deep dark place because, after all, ‘I am the light’. The danger of knowing I am the light, and yet I feel darkness, is that I may pretend it is not there, hide it, or worse, give in to it. Alone, I may be tempted to believe that there is no hope, that no one hears me, and that my darkness is the truth about me. This is not the truth, and yet when I FEEL that way, it is the most challenging time to reach for light.

So what do I do when I feel so alone, struggling with something seemingly on my own, and yet not alone? Even surrounded at times by well-meaning family and loved ones, I can feel as if no one understands, I can feel judged or wounded, even if no one says anything against me – it is a thought I have about myself, that hasn’t yet found its way into the light to be healed. How can I find my way through that darkness and reach for the light within?

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One of my friends said something profoundly wise the other day as she listened with compassion – a rare gift. Knowing me as she does, that I am one to hide away when the going gets tough, she coaxed me out and provided a safe cushion to lean on while I unloaded myself. She said, “What if going within is not something we have to do by ourselves? What if going within just means going into your heart, and that means reaching out to other people, soul connection? Maybe connection isn’t just a solitary thing, maybe it can be done together because we are all connected?”

As a channel, I have learned, rather reluctantly because I have never been a good meditator, to go into a deep trance (hypnosis) and access my spiritual essence, and even talk to guides and angels. You would think, given this incredible gift, that I would never feel alone. “You can talk to Heaven? My God! Lucky you! I wish I had a direct line to God!” Well… I do. So do you, but I STILL feel alone. I don’t say this to give you no hope, I say this because the deeper message here, is that maybe God can’t be found by myself.

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Maybe God is a two-way street – or better yet, an intersection – or a busy square where many souls greet. Maybe God cannot be found locked away in a solitary cave or room (though some have found him there, too). Maybe God greets us most when we are in love, when we are forlorn and being picked up by a friend, when our husband hugs us after we feel broken and fragile, when we listen to children playing in the pool, walk barefoot on the dewy grass, or let the dog lick our face.

Maybe God is in the details. In the laughter and tears, in the rolling hills, in the depressing days of sadness where we feel so lost, and the miraculous times of healing when our hearts receive the love and hope we so desperately need from just the right person – or another unlikely place.  

Maybe love is not just in our pleas to God, but in the listening and receiving.

As a ‘spiritual person’ (I will say it only one more time, I promise), I can also be tempted to think that it is OK to give love, to extend myself beyond my own limits for others so they feel loved, but it is not OK for me to receive it, to need it, to want it, to grab for it, and even to lose it. It is not OK for me to fail or fall down. To feel alone. To feel small. It is not OK for me to be a human being who talks to angels, and sometimes would rather be with a flesh-and-bones friend whom I can see, touch and feel.

Maybe it’s OK to admit that God isn’t up there, all alone in his high cloud without me – maybe it’s OK to greet God right here, in my own world, no matter how lonely or messed up I feel. Maybe God is right here, right now, with me and you as we read and write these things, together. And in the illumination that comes from finally letting the dark cloud out of my head, and letting my heart reach out one more time – to God only knows who. Because in that moment of truth, that moment of connection, wisdom comes, and communion.

And isn’t that what God and love is all about? 

 

Let me know how you reach God when times are tough. Write a comment or email your private share here. Thank you for sharing.

 

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The Life of the Soul

A study of the soul, by Krista Moore. For those who are struggling on the path of awakening, and wondering why you don’t feel good, or if you are doing it “wrong”…  Hopefully this will give you comfort and faith for the journey.


 

I have never questioned the existence of a soul. One has only to spend a little bit of time with me while I am brooding on the meaning of it all to know the depths the soul can live. A scientific mind too has a soul – it simply finds its answers in the known universe, which even then, boggles it from understanding anything at all. But it is not just answers the soul seeks. It is experience. A feeling of fullness, wholeness, freedom from any questions.

 

The soul is the part of us that exists within and beyond the body. It cannot be contained, which is often why it causes us such misery in contemplating its deeper wants and existence. If our life, in comparison to the soul, is somewhat contained, and contrite, and deals in shallow, known waters; if it does not surface to explore the depths and chooses to remain hidden from us, we will feel as if there is a hole in our very being, a vacuous tent with no furnishings, no music, and no food to keep it from starving. This too is an exercise of the soul, to awaken us to something deeper. It may be painful, but it is a necessary step in showing us the difference between meaning, and a world without it.

 

What does the soul love more than anything else? To know itself. To extinguish the false, and to disappear into the blazing light of truth. It is a difficult master, and has no mercy on those who cling to childish things. There is no joy that does not come at the cost of giving up the meaningless. True joy is what the soul feels, when we are washed in its light, free to do its bidding, and share the gifts only spirit brings. True joy comes from union with God, its creator, Source of all things. When the soul is lit, it is capable of great joy, and wants only to share itself and experience all with great abundance and clarity. It is wise, expansive, jovial and alive. Not every soul experesses itself this way, but I believe, in its truest light, unguarded and unbounded, every soul is capable of this.

 

How does one, who has not yet had this feeling, come to experience the soul? If they have cried or lost anything, they have experienced an opening of the soul. The challenge is not to shut down the tiny crack that has been opened by heartache or disappointment, and instead to feel even more what that heartache or disappointment is pointing toward. If it is a loss of love, or death we have experienced, the soul teaches us that we have loved and lost to learn something. In the absence of that love, we feel torn apart. Any separation on the earth plane from those we love feels like the separation from God, even if we don’t believe in Him. If you have ever experienced loneliness so deep you thought you were going to die, you have experienced this separation, which all humans suffer at one point or another. It is a temporary condition of our corporeal lives, a trick of the body that says we are separate from one another, and different from everything we see in the physical world. Our bodies seem solid and real, while our minds seem able to go from one unrelated thought to another. While we sleep our minds visit other places and dream of unknown things. We never realize that the mind never sleeps, and is the shepherd of the soul’s deeper longings. Hopefully it is a good sheppard, and we can keep what is important to us close at hand, if not close in our hearts.

 

In our vulnerability and loss, we can find the key to our soul. Like a child finding a seedling in the garden, and planting it in a deeper hole so that it will grow, we can dig a little deeper and find true shelter for our soul. Our hearts can open even wider, stretch us even more profoundly. Where we thought it was time to walk away from such “negative” feelings, we must examine the deeper longing underneath the belief that we are alone or that we will never love again. To be loved is the natural state of the soul. To be in a constant stream of consciousness which is ever reaching and expanding itself, is the natural state of the mind. This is only painful-seeming to us as humans who have limited ourselves to what feels comfortable and certain, rather than be faced with the uncomfortable reality that we don’t know anything. Better to not know and ask a deeper question, then to bury our dreams and let them pass us by. If instead we plant our hopes, our intentions, even our pains, by digging into the heart and feelings, we will be rewarded with happy tears as well as hope springing from the soul’s eternal ground.

 

So our job is not always to feel pleasant and happy – though we may end up there after the work is done. Our real job is to find everything standing in the way of that happiness, and admitting to ourselves where we have fallen short of the soul’s natural unfettered state of joy, and asking ourselves why we have done that? If we feel we are undeserving of such happiness, or that such freedom is impossible in the world, we will continue to suffer, and the soul will or will not keep showing us the other way. Let us hope it continues to push us deeper and away from our comfort, and out into the open where life breathes, and love is self-renewing. And the world is but a temporary playground where we can learn our lessons and become more and more acquainted with our soul.

 

What can we hope to expect if we do not give up? A window into the soul is a window indeed into another universe of things. Past, present and future seem to meld into an eternal mix of possibilities. What seemed broken and inconsolable can now mend. Hearts once closed and swept so clean they seemed hospital sterile can be flooded with new love as green and productive as a wild spring. Rushes of hope can lead to unexpected visitors and companions on the journey back to our true self. What felt lonely and uncertain, now feels warm and inviting, a great source of material for bonding with our fellow humans. And courage comes, too. Out of the depths of all that lay waste, pale yellow fruit pops from the ground and raises itself up to the light above, filling with the juicy stuff of life that one can simply taste or share with the whole group. We discover that we have been grown in the process, and taught to live. And if we are very “lucky” (meaning willing and ready), we may even break the bonds of the earth for a time and, experiencing ourselves as pure soul, take flight.